Learning to find the blue sky called NOW

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How do you find now? By letting go of the past and giving up your ideas of the future.
How do you do that? You just let go of controlling your thoughts and emotions.
How do you do that? You sit still in a comfortable position and you become the watcher and feeler of your thoughts and emotions. You give up controlling your feelings and thoughts and you let them run wild until they have no more energy, they begin to slow down and moments of peace, acceptance and stillness appear. “Hey you are meditating!”

While you meditate you might see your mind as a beautiful blue sky and your thoughts are the clouds that travel across the sky blocking the light. There are times when the clouds turn grey and fill with rain, hail, lightening and strong winds making the world dark and forlorn. But behind all that noise and movement sits the beautiful blue sky and glowing yellow sun. So depending on what you focus on will depend on what you experience in that moment. “Hey your meditating again”.the pass

Meditating is easy if we understand that we have complete freedom to create our day by deciding on what to focus on in every moment. We do this anyway unconsciously in every moment. This ability to choose means that we have the power to completely change our world by changing our focus. Continue reading

Chasing God part 2

It seems that Jesus has always been at the back of all the spiritual journeys I have taken in my search for God. My recent mystical spiritual journey was with Sri AmmaBhagavan at the Oneness University in India. Over the last 7 years I have attended all their courses on becoming awakened but again the Indian path of devotion was hard to comprehend.

What I loved about their teachings was that it was important to have a personal relationship with the Divine and that we all needed to create our own God, especially if the one you had wasn’t working for you. Dr Richard Bartlett says, ” If your higher-self is not working for you, then hire another one!”

I have always found Spirit/light in every teaching, every religion. I don’t think the Divine would leave anyone out so He/She has turned up in every culture in the forms best suited for humanity to find love and peace.

So more recently I prayed for what would be the highest form for me to identify with and you guested it Jesus and the ACIM returned fully into my life. The more I wanted the Indian Gods to be present Christ appeared. Over the last 2 years since my trip to India, where I attended a course that guaranteed I would become Awakened,  I have had a heightened experience of the Divine light that reveals all the blocks in me where I struggle to hold on to my personal self/ego.

A Course in Miracles is very clear about how love is unteachable, you don’t need to learn how to love. You are love, lovable, loved and loving. “You are as God created You” acim. However what you do have to do is remove all the blocks to loves presence. This is where all the pain and struggle arises. The altar of the heart has to be cleared of all the fear, anger judgements, worry, conflict and criticism before the Divine can enter. And it isn’t really clearing away the blocks, more like lovingly letting them go. It is the willingness to give up the struggle and resistance that allows God to reveal It-self.

This is where the path of surrender (letting go, acceptance, loving what is, forgiveness) and Divine Grace becomes paramount in taking the final steps on the journey home. One thing is for sure we can’t do it alone, that would be trying to pick up a stick while standing on it. We all need to ‘let go and let God’

Have I felt this presence? Yes many times. What has changed for me? Well I am more accepting of all my sub-personalities, I can regain my internal balance in under a half hour instead of the 3 or 4 days I would be fighting with my self. I have learnt to embrace me just as I am, ahhhh
Ram Dass says” this is where your neurosis becomes your style”.
I get through my negative stuff quicker, I forgive faster, I experience more beauty, light, wonder and feel loving kindness for my self and all that suffer on this blue orb. My wife says I am overall a happier, more peaceful individual.

I guess I have finally realised that chasing God out there is a waste of time. God sits in the light of my heart and I just need to be willing to ask for grace and surrender to the light of Divine Presence. Sounds easy but it can mean a huge journey that can take a life time. “The longest journey is the one from the head to the heart.”  The trick is to enjoy the ride.

“Entering the water he disturbs nothing
he lets the water take him
he aims for the opposite shore
and allows the current to take him there,
he emerges relaxed, no energy expended
and goes on his way.”

Written by Robert Kendall

Chasing God

I have been on a spiritual journey for many years, not because I wanted to be holy or spiritual but because I recognized in my twenties that the answers to all my problems laid in the wisdom of the east. Christianity was, to me filled with fear and judgement, very limited in its understanding of the universe and consciousness.

It was only after I smoked some weed that my mind was released and I began to see a wider, deeper state of reality. I began reading every Buddhist and Indian philosophy book I could get my hands on. Here was an exciting world of endless possibilities. Here were universes within universes. Gods and Goddesses, masters that were fun, loving, intelligent, kind and generous with their wisdom and blessings. People who where living a magical world of miracles and everyday common sense.

God was anything you wanted Her to be, light, consciousness, Presence, beingness, bliss, Oneness and most of all love. The rules where more like guidelines helping you along the journey to become awakened, fully enlightened. The East, over thousands of years had created a road map on how to be happy and fully conscious in light and love. Their psychology was advanced with detail instructions on how to reach peace, and I loved candle[1]it all.

But there was one problem that kept showing up, I had difficulty really understanding the rituals that where meant to awaken the God within and gain His grace.

In one of my trips to India I realised that the Indians see God, as there for them, not the other way around. God is supposed to help them in family, wealth creation, health and life in general. They have no problem with demanding from God what they need.

At the same time they do all they can to entice God to show up, hence all the elaborate ceremonies to draw Him to them. The crazy thing is that it works. Doing one of these 8 hour ceremonies I was taken into a different level of awareness, the energy shifts, the energy centers open within the body/mind and a different level of reality opened to reveal love, light and an awakened intelligence not previously present.

But I realised at the same time I wasn’t Indian and I was not brought up in the culture. The little nuances of an Indian upbringing was not in my DNA blue print. No matter how hard I tried, I was a western white boy with Christian DNA. It was at this time I prayed to Jesus Christ and my prayer went like this, “OK Jesus I am willing to have you in my life but I don’t want all the christian crap. You will have to come to me in a different way, a way that entails meditation and love” and I left it at that.

Two weeks later a friend came over with a set of Books. She said that a yoga teacher we both knew had given them to her, thinking I might be able to use them. She wasn’t  interested in them and my name had popped up in her mind. The books where ‘A Course in Miracles’ (ACIM), a book channeled from Christ by a Jewish psychologist.

It pretty well covered all my criteria for how Jesus was allowed back into my life. And so started a journey that I have been on and off for 35 year. I started with the workbook, each lesson was as a daily meditation. Through these years Christ and I have had our ups and downs.The course took a back seat while I lived at the Findhorn community in Scotland. Over that 5 years it was 24 hour/ 7 days a week group encounter with 200 members. There was so much going on spiritually that I didn’t need to look at the books.

to be continued -Chasing God part 2

“Entering the water he disturbs nothing
he lets the water take him
he aims for the opposite shore
and allows the current to take him there,
he emerges relaxed, no energy expended
and goes on his way.” RK

Written by Robert Kendall

 

 

Why Meditate?

I have been meditating for over 40 years. In fact I am addicted to sitting still for an hour and completely letting go into the moment.  It brings me great peace and a quiet mind.
I first started meditating because I had gone through a messy divorce (emotionally) and I wanted to get rid of the suffering and pain I was feeling. I started with the simple technique of watching my breath and allowing the pain to surface. It was very uncomfortable in the beginning to just “let it be” but the more I breathed into my pain the more it dissolved and the lightness of peace appeared.
I recognised that all my suffering was from my busy mind. My thoughts kept going over the past trying to get rid of the pain but that just seemed to cause more pain.

In Ancient Chinese wisdom of the Tao, it says that “from the One(ness) comes the two (yin/yang) and from the two comes the three and from the three comes the 10 thousand things.” This is a description of how our minds create the world.

Mandala by Robert kendall

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Quantum science now tells us that it is our thoughts that create the 3rd dimension, our world is made up of our thoughts, what they call our ‘personal perceptual bias’.

At 11 billion plus thoughts a second (right brain) we are creating our reality in the torsion field of our total consciousness. And only 7 to 12 thoughts a second are being picked up by our conscious linear thinking left brain. Continue reading