I have spent my life seeking Happiness

Seeking Happiness
by Robert Kendall 
www.in8wisdom.com

If you are like me, you want a better life.
 We all want a better life, we want to be happy, playful and have more fun every day. We want to be healthy, energised, successful, with a mind that is free, creative and filled with inner peace, joy and love.

Ultimately we all want to experience love and happiness, don’t we?
So why don’t we have that?
Why is it so hard to stay happy?
Why can’t I spend my day in joyful, loving thoughts and feelings?

I have spent most of my adult life searching for the answers to those questions. I have done many things, travelled the world, lived in a spiritual community and spent loads of money on seminars, books and courses of all types, I have tried sex, drugs and loud rocking music, all to simply be happy and find the meaning to life.

Last week, I was walking along the beach talking to my inner child, as one does on the beach. I was thinking, ‘what advice would I give to my child about his future?’ and I started to go in a downward spiral thinking about all the problems he will have to face, the struggles, the broken hearts, the health problems and it felt like I should tell him to give up and find a safe little hole to climb into.

But I then remembered that my life also had another story to tell. One of adventure and great love and miracles of success with great learning and meeting amazing people and wonders of nature and its raw beauty and power.

How the colour of sunsets and flowers and the inner light will bring heart openings of love and deep inner peace. How grace, a sense of humour and a connection to the Divine will carry him through the lessons of dark times and I began to get excited for him.

I start telling him that it is worth taking the journey, that it is worth the effort to search and look for the truth in all things. I told him to jump out onto the path and head into the wilderness and follow the bright sun of the new day and the shinning stars of night.

“I am going on an adventure!”,  Bilbo Baggins. The Hobbit Continue reading

I can’t meditate or relax because my mind is always busy

Meditation leads you to a Loving heart and a Peaceful mind-is that true?
by Robert Kendall

Meditating for 45 years (wow) has brought me many gifts, profound insight, frustration, joy filled laughter (mostly at the antics of my own mind) and profound peace and inner connection.

When teaching people how to meditate the biggest problem I hear is “I can’t meditate  because I just can’t stop thinking, my mind is always busy and I just end up sitting there frustrated and angry at myself”.

My answer to that is “good! your meditation is working”.
Most people want to learn to meditate so they may feel peaceful and happy, which really means they are unhappy, stressed, tense, worried, angry,  etc.  All those negative emotions that cause you suffering and be in some form of pain.

But that also cause us to look for answers.

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This full moon is really messing with my head

This full moon is really messing with my head.

You know the word lunacy comes from lunar. In Traditional Chinese Medicine they say that the energy is drawn up to the head and it is best not to treat the head during a full moon because you can make headaches worse. Best to treat the lower body and legs to pull the energy downwards.
‘If you want to relieve a headache massage the feet’

Anyway back to me (have we stopped talking about me?) It has been really hard for me to stay focused on finishing my online course (Breaking the Stress Cycle). I am so close to hitting the publish button and feel incredibly impatient to see it up and running. But my perfectionism keeps me wanting to add more or change what I have, which just keeps me extending my launch date. Continue reading

The need for a daily sacred practice

Creating Sacred Spacesbali-entrance-pencil

Shauna and I went to Bali a couple of years ago for a holiday. It was our first time to Bali and we just wanted to hang out and rest, do a little shopping and see the country. We found the Balinese happy and friendly. To us they appeared to be soft and gentle hearted people, who placed their Spiritual and family life first.

The majority of Balinese are Hindu and they place their spiritual lives above all things. Each house has a temple to the Gods and spirits of their ancestors; some of their sacred spaces are so large that they take up the whole top floor of their house. They fill each day with Spiritual awareness and at least 3 times a day the Balinese make a conscious connection with the Divine with offerings and prayer.

The streets were littered with little prayer parcels asking for blessings. In every doorway and place of business the blessing parcels where piled up. We could easily tell how desperate each shop was for business by how high their prayer parcels were piled.

When we landed in Bali, Shauna and I could immediately sense a change of energy in the environment, even just walking out of the plane into the airport. Bali felt calmer and more peaceful. It had a gentler type of energy, somewhat less frantic than where we live. Even though everyone drove their scooters as if there was no tomorrow, there was still this flow of life force that was neither pushed nor hurried. Life flowed through the present moment with no hurry. Continue reading

Chasing God part 2

It seems that Jesus has always been at the back of all the spiritual journeys I have taken in my search for God. My recent mystical spiritual journey was with Sri AmmaBhagavan at the Oneness University in India. Over the last 7 years I have attended all their courses on becoming awakened but again the Indian path of devotion was hard to comprehend.

What I loved about their teachings was that it was important to have a personal relationship with the Divine and that we all needed to create our own God, especially if the one you had wasn’t working for you. Dr Richard Bartlett says, ” If your higher-self is not working for you, then hire another one!”

I have always found Spirit/light in every teaching, every religion. I don’t think the Divine would leave anyone out so He/She has turned up in every culture in the forms best suited for humanity to find love and peace.

So more recently I prayed for what would be the highest form for me to identify with and you guested it Jesus and the ACIM returned fully into my life. The more I wanted the Indian Gods to be present Christ appeared. Over the last 2 years since my trip to India, where I attended a course that guaranteed I would become Awakened,  I have had a heightened experience of the Divine light that reveals all the blocks in me where I struggle to hold on to my personal self/ego.

A Course in Miracles is very clear about how love is unteachable, you don’t need to learn how to love. You are love, lovable, loved and loving. “You are as God created You” acim. However what you do have to do is remove all the blocks to loves presence. This is where all the pain and struggle arises. The altar of the heart has to be cleared of all the fear, anger judgements, worry, conflict and criticism before the Divine can enter. And it isn’t really clearing away the blocks, more like lovingly letting them go. It is the willingness to give up the struggle and resistance that allows God to reveal It-self.

This is where the path of surrender (letting go, acceptance, loving what is, forgiveness) and Divine Grace becomes paramount in taking the final steps on the journey home. One thing is for sure we can’t do it alone, that would be trying to pick up a stick while standing on it. We all need to ‘let go and let God’

Have I felt this presence? Yes many times. What has changed for me? Well I am more accepting of all my sub-personalities, I can regain my internal balance in under a half hour instead of the 3 or 4 days I would be fighting with my self. I have learnt to embrace me just as I am, ahhhh
Ram Dass says” this is where your neurosis becomes your style”.
I get through my negative stuff quicker, I forgive faster, I experience more beauty, light, wonder and feel loving kindness for my self and all that suffer on this blue orb. My wife says I am overall a happier, more peaceful individual.

I guess I have finally realised that chasing God out there is a waste of time. God sits in the light of my heart and I just need to be willing to ask for grace and surrender to the light of Divine Presence. Sounds easy but it can mean a huge journey that can take a life time. “The longest journey is the one from the head to the heart.”  The trick is to enjoy the ride.

“Entering the water he disturbs nothing
he lets the water take him
he aims for the opposite shore
and allows the current to take him there,
he emerges relaxed, no energy expended
and goes on his way.”

Written by Robert Kendall